Crazy Week Off

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MENTIONS OF STALKING, $U!C!D3, AND THR3@T$ OF MURD3R!!!

This week has been so crazy! I mean I've had crazier, but that's a story for another time. The point is, there's this dude that has been messaging me since January on Snapchat. He messaged me for the first time on January 13th. At first he was sweet and asked me on a date. I don't understand why because that wasn't at all the motive apparently. (You'll understand later on.) Anyways, he messaged me and asked me on a date. I said no because I already have a boyfriend right? It gets CRAZIER. After I reject he starts making some... less than PG claims of what he plans to do to me. Keep in mind this wasn't even his motive so I have no idea why he would start it off like this. Maybe to avoid suspicion of who he is? I don't really know. He also had his name set to my ex boyfriend's name and when I asked he said he didn't do that and showed that his name was "Daniel Jones". I have no idea why that was the name he chose.

When I told him I was nonbinary now because he called me by my deadname he said "oh so you're one of them 'they/them mother effers. (More colorful, but you understand.) Then going on to say that he would... do certain things to my dead corpse after he "kills" me. He never ended up doing it, so he must've just been trying to get in my head. I then had my ex text him and figure out what was going on. Mostly because he's a big dude and would protect me with his life if he had to. I never found evidence of anyone named Daniel in my yearbooks. He had also stated that he was 5'4" and around 200 lbs. This is important for later.

The last time he texted me in January was on the 21st and he asked me if I was single yet and said he had watched me and my ex walk around. Stating again that he wanted to... do certain things to me. He didn't text back until February 10th when he asked, using my deadname, if I missed him. I replied, "Not really" and didn't get a response for quite a while until this past Friday, February 23rd. 

He texted at exactly 11:11 right after I had just woken up. He said he was back and was going to see me on Monday, aka today. He then listed off my two close friends and my ex boyfriend and said they couldn't protect me. He said after me he would go for them. I acted not terrified even though I was shaking. He said that he might show up to my house and stated the road that I live on. I told him he was wrong and that he knew nothing about me. He then goes on to say how I cheated on my ex. (I did it was a whole thing, I know it makes me sound bad, but I'll explain in a second.) Therefore leading me to believe that the ex boyfriend I had been with and telling all of this was the person who was sending these messages. That's logical, right? He then said that the dude I cheated on my ex with (now my boyfriend, but nobody knows that except for my close friends) was next after one of my close friends. 

He then says that he is a friend of my ex's and says that even my ex has no idea who he is. This is where we get to the real issue that he wanted to talk to me about originally. He calls me selfish and says I can't live with the fact that I did something wrong to break my ex's heart. Which is false. I very much own up to the fact that I did something wrong and have attempted to fix it many times. He tells me to leave him alone and I mention that I'm trying to. I then learn that he's apparently in a 33 person group chat with my ex. Which is odd because my ex hated that group chat with a passion.

In an attempt to simmer down the conversation I said he was talking to some asian girl. My ex's words, not mine. This dude then goes on to tell me that this girl is a lesbian and has a boyfriend ( very contradictory I know). I then go on to say that I don't want to get back with him because I don't want to hurt him again. I had lost feelings a while ago and didn't have the heart to tell him. Thus, I ended up in a cheating situation. Before I even knew I had gotten into one, I was in it. I tried to talk with my ex about it, but he had phone restrictions that only allowed him 2 hours on it and he only talked to me for about 15 minutes of those 2 hours a day. I tried at school as well, but me, being the pu$$3y I am, couldn't bring myself to say it. The day I was going to say something he was told by one of his friends. Then he broke up with me on the spot, which is fair. I definitely deserved it.

Continuing on, we have a long conversation about how I don't want to hurt my ex again. He then says that my ex having stage 2 brain cancer was a lie to manipulate me back with him. My ex later confirmed this. "Daniel" then tells me to just be friends with my ex. I tell him I am and that's the truth. I still talk with him, we hang out sometimes, there's no hard feelings. Even though my ex had continuously tried to touch me after we broke up and I felt uncomfortable I still remained friends with him. I told him I would try to be better friends with my ex regardless of the fact that my ex was still attempting to manipulate me to get me back.

He then asked why I cheated and I told him the same explanation I told here. He said I hadn't asked for more attention when I had done so multiple times. My ex didn't listen and I didn't feel heard. He would rather live stream on Twitch for 2 hours. This was when he made the deal with me. He told me to give my ex 2 weeks to try to spark a connection with me again. I agreed. He then said that if he caught me doing... stuff... with another guy he would come looking for me. Then going back on his previous statement about his size "Daniel" stated that he was 6'5" 392 lbs. Then said that his hand was the size of my ex's face and said that if I did anything like that with anyone, but his "homie" I would be, and I quote, "In deep $h!t".

After that was situated he started fighting me about things I didn't "deny" even though I very much did. I told him that neither of us have the high ground and that we should try to understand each person's side. He made fun of a small spelling error which I shut down very quickly. "Daniel" continues by saying I don't love him. I confirm that I don't love him romantically and he says, his words not mine, "If you love somebody in a regular way and not a romantic way you can still date them you don't have to love them romantically to be with them". I respond by asking if he doesn't love his friends. He says he does and that his point "still stands" because I don't have the guts to get back with my ex because I know I'll break his heart again. I confirm and congratulate him for understanding. 

He calls me an @$$h0l3 and says that my ex almost committed... yeah, because of me multiple times. He tells me my ex's sob story that I've heard over and over about how nobody ever wants to date him because of his size and hair color. Calls me a nonbinary skank and I say "Calling me names isn't helping your case hun". He tells me only his GIRLFRIEND can call him hun. (Mind you he had asked me on a date before.) I tell him that I respect him even if he doesn't respect me to help neutralize the emotions in the room. He says he just wants to save his friends life which does make me feel bad. We talk over an actual deal and he said if I hurt my ex again he'll k!ll me. He's given me two weeks to "make up" and "attempt to spark" a relationship with my ex. I'm taken, but my ex can't know that and "Daniel" DEFINITELY can't know that. I talked it over with my current boyfriend and he's ok with it because it's just like a "talking stage". Thus, I seal the deal.

It doesn't end there. My ex saw me the night after all of this took place to bring me a sprite. (He does that sometimes after work.) I tell him all that happened and how I think it's his best friend. I won't name him for privacy purposes. Then just today "Daniel" or my ex's best friend sent a message saying he saw me eating my lunch. He told me, "You better try". I say that I am and then say my ex's best friend's name. He told me I'd figured it out. Saying that if the outcome during the two weeks of talking plays out alright he'll leave me alone. Saying I know what happens if it doesn't. I agree and the last message sent was "I hope it works out for your sake".

I showed my ex all of this and now he's mad at his best friend and swears he'll just remain friends with me and protect me. I'm still unsure whether or not he's involved though. Should I trust him?