(> . ✩) brainrot

                   ☆sunday, feb 23, 2024☆                          

i decided to be on this website again because i'm afraid i'll lose amy and lose myself with it, i'll be so lonely without her . my psychiatrist said i should make an effor to socialize and make friends but everybody at school stares at me, nobody talks to me, only her, only amy, she's the only one who likes me and i'm in fucking love with her 

i'm getting better mentally, changed and increased some of my meds, now i just feel numb, except when i think of her, like if my depression wasn't enough i need to feel things for other people too? i hate how i could bring her up at any moment, she's ever so present in my life, every thought comes back to her and she dwells inside my mind and suddendly i'm smiling and feeling fuzzy

enough talking about her (> . ^) i got more stiches, stayed in the hospital for another 10 days and blablabla it's all bullshit, i'm tired