old poems

hi! this is a poem that i found on my old notebook, kinda embarassed but i want to share it

I remember that stage of my life just too well, but at the same time I kinda feel like there are holes on my memories, holes which I craved myself just to forget about it, but the feeling its still there anyways, its one of those feelings thats actually too deep to forget, to intense.

On those times i just wished I was loved, not only romantically but also as a person, I just felt so alone and left beside by people, even if they where around me and I tried so hard to keep them close I just couldn't, I got to the point where I started to push away the only people that were significant for me and I developed an evading way of being.

Every time I started to get close to somebody I just didn't, somehow I managed to not care at all (I don't really recommend that) but that just made things worse, I was trying to block my feeling do I could stop feeling so bad, but it also prived me to being able to feel the good things in life and enjoying it in any way.

if anyone ever read this I just want you to know that no matter what you are going through and no matter how hopeless you are, never stop feeling, never stop caring, never make yourself think things do not affect you at all, cause once you stop caring about all the "bad things" that happen to you, you never get to enjoy the good ones. Im not saying that things feel bad, becase with putting ("") marks into that sentence I just meant that those things are not necessarily bad things, they feel bad tho, but that doesn't mean it is, everything has a lesson that you could learn so take something from it, try to use it as an experience and fight to move forward, I know its not easy but thats something I wish I heard before.

POEM TRANSLATION

True Love:

you are my everything

you are my true love

iv'e needed you

i've cried for you

i've search and prayed for you

you are so perfect but so full of imperfections as well

so annoying but so sweet

sometimes I wish I could tell you how much you mean for me...

sometimes I wish you where real.

OG POEM

Amor Verdadero:

eres mi todo

eres mi amor verdadero 

te he necesitado

te he llorado

te he buscado y rogado

eres tan perfecto y tan defectuoso a la vez

tan molesto pero tan dulce

aveces me dan ganas de decirte lo tanto que significas para mi...

quisiera que fueras real

I might post more about this notebook later, who knows :)