talking to walls

sorry for the sad blogs,, today just hasnt been good and i dont have anyone to talk to. talking to this one ex makes me extremely happy but they only like text me once a day but now its been two days with no response- and i get it they said i could text them whenever but they couldnt guaranty they would respond to me but idk,, i got kinda used to the one text hours after i texted them. it sounds so pathetic. even one text from them gives me motivation to like get my life together. i know they dont miss me, they dont want me back, i doubt they even want anything to do with me but its just so hard to let go. i believe i gen love them. like real "i wanna spend the rest of my life with you" love. we were together for just a bit over a year and it was honestly great even though we had our issues. they are the only person that really knows and understands me. they like know everything about me. they make me feel like i can be myself. this was gonna be a blog about how talking to my friends and my ex was like talking to walls but im just so hung up on my ex. they mean so much more to me than my friends. i love my ex. so much. too much. i know i have to let go bc there doesnt seem to be a future for us, i just wish there was. id do anything to start over and do things right with them.