Hey, Ill just get into what Im talking about.
Im 16 and my only hobby is work, I go home and do Nothing. Things that interests me are writing and reading when im not on my phone or being distracted by media I don't have easily accessible friends, I do have a boyfriend but I don't want to mention him on the account of it being unrelated with him not being here the following remains the same.
Recently things that I have thought I could do to waste time is just go outside and record doesn't really make sense to anyone who would watch it live but it would be a excuse to do something right , this is a dangerous place for me to be at in the past when I was hobbyless and had nothing to do allllll day I picked up smoking weed I had no hobbies, nothing to do so to waste time I would smoke... Its that or sleeping and I stopped smoking about 9+ months ago because I was starting hrt and wanted to better myself before as I knew smoking was gonna be something I would have to stop... I dont like crafts so I cant be like a fursuit maker or something, im a introvert so that's a big no to clubs or that kind of things I did many martial arts in the past which was really good way to waste time I learned A LOT of things and I would say im a tier 1 fighter but I never talked to anyone inside besides maybe the coaches... I don't want to sound co depend but I will do things with people like I feel im someone where if someone constantly kept inviting me or someone wanted to hang out I would do it either out of not doing anything or simply WANTING TO I'm like someone who waits for a invite but never gets one I just don't have any friends and when I did they were fucking lame lol my catchphrase I keep to myself is " I've yet to meet someone who thinks even 50% like me" which really just comes from all my past friends having nothing in common with me or it being that most of the thoughts in my head I have never heard another human utter from their mouths but im BLABBING.... I've really been going on the internet recently like well probably 6 months but only recently have I really been using like idk someone who depends on it I would say something about me is that im very strong mentally I can be a complete internet freak but still know how to act in public, I can have fucked up thoughts yet act normal Ive never had suicidal thoughts and I know what's wrong and not and everyone can but I mean actually do whats right and wrong ie cutting,Ive done that a couple of times but like 3 to count. The point of that is that I don't see my mental health declining or going down the wrong path ik ppl who usually use the internet to socialize become toxic, antisemtic just horrible people but im not worried about that ever happening and I have a therapist incase I ever do go down bad Im off topic here now sort off...
Heres my youtubeΒ
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTv4p-43FM489mn0VBplOEQ
I kind of want to see if this 16 yr old life is normalΒ
how often do you go out with friends or even outside for lets say atleast 3 hours cuz everyone goes outside for yknow trash or walk the dog or appointment Im talking about drinking at a coffee store doing hw or talking to a friend.Β
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You're doing better than you think and I think you're being too hard on yourself. You've decided to stop smoking and resist peer pressure for your own health, which is a VERY mature decision, and you should be very proud of yourself! Also writing and reading are GREAT hobbies! :) Keep going on the right path. Staying on the straight edge path seems objectively boring, but in the long-term you will feel so grateful. Hang in there and take care of yourself
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Thank you, its challenging waking up at 11 am but knowing I will be doing nothing at all so just staying in bed sleeping and the urge to smoke as a method of doing something is just thank you!
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