Blog #4 2/23 woahhhhh hey again

Errmmmm hey guys, I haven’t even thought about this site in like 2 months….

Anyhow, I’m doing good, still have some problems and such……. But… like it’s fine

A couple months ago I went through this phase where it felt like no one cared, about like me or anything really, specifically the people and teachers at my school. I felt really bad during that time…. And then… I discovered the musical “Assassins” and my world FLIPPED! 

GOD ITS SO GOOD! ITS ABOUT PEOPLE WHO HAVE TRIED TO AND HAVE SUCCESSFULLY KILLED THE PRESIDENT AND!!! ITS LIKE ABOUT HOW THE AMERICAN DREAM IS DEAD AND HOW ALL THESE PEOPLE FELT LIKE NO ONE CARED…. Now, I’m not glorifying these people, what they did or tried to do was horrible…. But, I was feeling the same way so to have it expressed in such an amazing way was really great, like these people were sooo angry that the only thing they thought they could do was killing the freaking president…. That is so much built up emotion, right? And some of the assassins had things in common with me (and my mom too, Zangara hit me hard because of that). So now, Assassins has been floating in my head and daydreams for months and weeks and days and it’s starting to get a little annoying, but I still love it.

Fun fact yesterday was the 50th anniversary of Sam Byck (one of the assassins) trying to fly a plane into the White House to kill Richard Nixon <3

So that’s how I’ve been doing, minus all the stuff about my mom, (it’s ALOT I’ll prob make a dif post about it) I’ve been living in the comfort of fictionalized versions of murders…. *sigh* I’ll find something different to think about at all time hopefully.

That’s it…. FOR NOW!!! MWAHAHAHA