Middle Skl sucks ass

Bro I actually hate middle skl sm omfg. Like when i first moved to that school everybody already had friends and nobody would talk to me. And I TRIED to talk to people but I honestly mentally and physically cannot. And the only people in my class that would talk to me was the fucking - I don't know how to say this without sounding rude- out of date losers who think they're funny. Like I appreciate that they actually talk to me but at the same time... yk!!?? Also wtf is wrong with the math class like how do you just expect me to know all of that shi and give us homework every single fucking day. 

Anyways so like I AM apart of a friend group that my best friend made, but um, I don't really think its working out for me. Because we're all in different classes- hold up- so I'm all alone in my class, two of my friends are in the same class together, and then everyone else is in the same class. And we have a meeting spot for lunch but I'm always the first one there and then I look all emo, and everyone takes forever except for this one girl who is so hard to talk to so its really awkward, and when we are together I barely talk and I'm just following everyone around. I'm not blaming them for me being awkward but just like, yeah. um.

Also my best friend has honestly been so hard to hang out with because she knows and is friends with freaking everybody, and everyone's always talking to her and stuff. And omfg today she literally left me to go hang out with this other girl- I would tell a whole ah story abt it but I cant be bothered- And left me with that girl who I'm extra awkward with for the whole lunch. (I couldn't find any of our other friends) and i would've just gone in the bathroom on my phone but I wasn't able to bc of the other girl. Yeah also I keep embarrassing myself so in conclusion, Kill me rn, 

Its 12:32am Byee love u!!<3