change + blog for td

sometimes people change, for better or for worse. sometimes it evens itself out.

why are we to dislike the way people change, if not harming us or themselves? who are we to judge? humans are disgusting enough, there's no harm in expressing yourself. you might be beautiful.

anyways, things that happened today:

at school and during an audition i did for choir, i was upset because of something my favorite teacher had told me. but when i got home, i went bike riding and saw this kid who goes to my school. we'll call him dung beetle (or, DG for short). DG dresses very cool, like me, and he has problems like i do. he's very quiet. i want him to be my friend. after me and DG hung out, my mom thought i ran away because i didn't answer my phone so she almost called the cops. when i got home she kind of freaked out on me. i'd rather not speak more about that. 

today i listened to a lot of off-putting songs. like solace by earl sweatshirt. nothing else media-related really happened, i cancelled band because i was upset.

i love my girlfriend very much. she is very kind to me. today she recognized that i was upset during 6th-7th period and she asked me what was wrong. her doing this just cheered me up because i know she cares about me too. and also we played rdr2 and gta5 together and we kept killing each other. it was funny and i love her.

bug fact. the diabolical ironclad beetle has an exoskeleton that makes it the world's hardest bug to crush.

had a lot of phantom shifts today. nothing else with therianthropy.

main mood for today? it was okay, but somewhat stressful. if i could choose to relive it, i probably wouldn't.

much love to all, ed