issue 10

there's a girl i sincerely hate, one who is my friend. let me start by saying that my relationship with this girl is nothing short of a rollercoaster ride. on one hand, she exudes a certain warmth and kindness that is undeniably endearing. however, there's a side to her that drives me up the wall – her incessant attachment to "C". its like she's glued to his side, constantly bombarding him with cries for help and declarations of love. everywhere she goes, drama follows. shes always in need of saving by him, showing up to him at all sorts of inconvenient hours. meanwhile, I'm standing right here, my feelings laid bare for her to see. despite her promises to assist me in getting closer to him, she ends up being nothing but a hindrance. her constant displays of affection towards him, coupled with her overtly flirtatious behavior, only serve to exacerbate my frustration. and let's be real, it's not like she's winning any awards in the looks department either. ill admit, there was a time when I harbored feelings for her. but her incessant whining and neediness have since extinguished any lingering attraction. I tried reasoning with her, urging her to give him some space, but it fell on deaf ears. instead, she brushed off my concerns, insisting that he's as much her best friend as he is mine, and that I should just "grow up" and let him make his own decisions. yet, despite her rhetoric about independence, she clings to him like a second skin. they're in constant communication, always glued to their phones, playing games together, leaving me feeling like a third wheel in my own friendship. and to add insult to injury, it's become glaringly obvious that her fondness for me is rooted solely in what I can provide for her – be it alcohol, or other favors, i even let her stay at my house and host parties for her. talk about ungrateful.

i want to be rid of her