restless soul (the lyrics to a song i wrote)

i'm turning 16 in a month 

and i still don't know 

who i am or who i'm not

my words come from burned tongues 

drinking tea in the dark 

my fingers stained with ink 

and dust from the stars 

i don't know where i'm supposed to go 

my tired body, restless soul 

they don't get along with my thunderstorm brain 

and they think my heart's insane 

i'm told to just figure it out 

but i still don't know 

what this movie is about 

my words come from scarred hands 

fountain pen by dying light 

my cheeks stained with glitter 

leaking from my eyes 

i don't know where i'm supposed to go 

my tired body, restless soul 

they don't get along with my thunderstorm brain 

and they know my heart's in pain 

it wants things it doesn't need 

i'll blame confusion but it's just greed 

you can't have everything if you want to succeed 

my lungs need to be full of smoke to breathe 

it needs things it doesn't want 

when it stops beating 

my restless soul comes back to haunt 

my tired body 

finally at peace in the ground 

the thunderstorm in my brain

reduced to the smell of rain