why? (TRAVIS PHELPS INSPIRED POEM)

I pray till my knees turn purple and my fingers go numb

my mouth goes dry

my eyes water

"why?"

i ask my heavenly father

"why do i have these sinful thoughts?"

"why do i wish i could hold him as he held me?"

"why"

i ask as tears fall down my bruised cheek

"why wont these thoughts go away?"

"why must i be a f@g?"

"will i ever be forgiven?"

"do i deserve to be beat?"

the last one was nonsense

i must be punished for my sins

even by my fathers hands

"why dose every time i see his blue hair

blue eyes

and that stupid mask

do i get these thoughts?"

my knees were bleeding and purple

just like my face

but its ok

i must pay for my sins

(TRAVIS DESERVED BETTER)