Negativity v1

My projected reality is diverged from my desired reality, my inability to understand why I do what I do complimented by the fact of my ignorance has lead to my wall Quinn. My path as you say is straighter yet I feel a veil of a fog cover me, I see projections of something more, something better. I think that what we forget to discuss is how I move about on this path, am I walking Quinn? Jogging? Sprinting? Driving? Biking? What is my transportation on my path towards myself and how will I know it’s myself. I think that I’m an easily tricked individual, I don’t ponder on the more important aspects of my life however, I ponder on the aspects of nothing.

Discussion of Life is meaningless if I have yet to discover it, I keep myself in a cave close to my torch as I draw about the unknown yet to exit from the known to the unknown is nearby, why won’t I go discover what this unknown entails? I find it almost elating that I consider myself ahead of other yet I’m nowhere close. I think it’s almost entertaining how we watch as times goes by, as our 75 summers (if we’re lucky to be leased with that) goes down with each passing day. How many of us can say we did something that matter to our future or even us today. I sure can’t, I think that I often ponder on my future rather than my present, as stated earlier I whisker on my dozenth move yet I haven’t even stepped for my first.

I wonder why I want more than what I have, why am I so selfish for a being in- a reality that isn’t deserving for me. I shouldn’t dream accomplishing my dreams if my actions belate another. My habits are my wounds and my imagination is my crunch, I hop along my days and allow myself to forget what truly matter which is now. Although do I even have a chance at now? I desire nothing more than to be free of these emotions that shackle me to my projected reality and therefore my desired reality.

I hate who I was, proud of who I am, desire who I am yet. Though, I often forget the most damaging things lay within our minds