ugh

sometimes college can be so overwhelming. most of my life i've never really known what to do with myself, to be honest i didn't think i'd get to 18 nevermind pass it. i thought i'd finally found a subject i had genuine interest in but like everything else, ive gotten bored and disinterested :/ i rly enjoy the practical aspect of the course but the theory? not so much. i thought it would be interesting, unique, not many people get the same opportunities as i've had from the course. it's not that i'm ungrateful, i just don't see my life heading down that pathway, then again i dont really see my life going down any pathway at the minute. i haven't for years! maybe i'm being dramatic, maybe in a few days ill be interested again, but i've spent months thinking about dropping out and the only thing that held me back was the financial side of it. now i can acknowledge that being there has and is taking more of a toll on my mental health than i thought :/

I don't expect anyone to read this, but if you do then thanks :)