OHHH LAWD

Sooooo positives first I suppose??

The networking event went really well and I met a few actors who were really interested in my film concept :3

I didn't win any awards at the screening for my music video (I wasn't expecting it tbh tho cus a lot of things went wrong with my project) 

A film I helped out with won best concept and I was rly happy bc they really deserved it,, the film was bloody hilarious and amazing. 

And a lot of people had nice things to say about my music video :D

However I realised I wasn't the only film student doing a music video,,,, and of course the other music video was the best thing you've ever seen???? Like I couldn't even be mad because it was so freaking good. But man I felt embarrassed. I begged my mom in the car to let me drop out of uni lol.

I still have a lot to learn. Last night I felt like a failure and absolutely wanted to give up. Today I am determined to work even harder. I won't give up until I can say I've made a film I'm proud of. 

Today I start on the dreaded script writing process. Wish me luck :3