4:26 am.

i think i need to start getting ready for school soon, but things havent been going very well and i havent felt comfortable enough to get a good nights sleep. maybe i only slept for 4/5 hours tonight. i went to bed at 10pm, fell asleep forty minutes later and woke up at 2:51am. 

sometimes things go wrong and my head cant rest. i didnt talk much to my boyfriend during the past two days and i usually dont interact to my old friends as much as i did to like a year ago. so this feeling of emptiness and loneliness is "normal" i guess. but recently, i joined a new school, i made friends quickly and i think maybe i belong there. i feel like i have problems with the past... the present is kinda of nice.

im excited to see my friends at school again! last week was school break. the last time i saw them was on the other friday. but just thinking about taking the bus makes me tired. and after school i will have a long study session that i will start daily. i think i am just nervous about going back to school.

anyway, its already 5am.