poetry

how was that all we had

was it that easy to just forget

you try to come back to me, but i cant open up

why am i so desperate for your love if i deny it every chance i get?

my middle name was after you,

and yet you ruined me.

you made me hate that name, you made me hate my nickname. you made me hate whats me, you made me hate who i am.

i hope destroying me, fixed you. no one else deserves that.

no one even tried to understand me at my worst, and wondered why i didnt open up from the start.

i was so angry at the world. everyone left me, everyone went away.

no one wanted to understand, and help me get out. they only made it worse.

im tryingh so hard to avoid my feelings, does anyone even care?