family

Recently in my life my dad had heart surgery. It has been hard for me and my family to adjust to this new lifestyle we have without him, because he kept us together and functional as a family. Now, all me and my brother do is fight basically cause he doesn't know how to shut the fuck up. It's because he always thinks he knows everything, and is always right even when he's wrong apparently. He try's to make you feel less than just to make himself feel better for being wrong too because he fucking sucks. Its been hard without my dad also because now I have to deal with the sports I play by myself, because my mom doesn't really know anything about them neither does my brother or sister. My brother try's to act like he knows everything about those too when he doesn't understand it very good. My mom is struggling I can tell she misses my dad. I can also tell that she wishes he was back to the way he was before all of this. (he had 3 strokes back to back to back so now he has brain damage and a little bit of dementia.) The other night I wanted to hangout with my mom, but when I walked in I could smell my dads cologne for some reason and she said she sprayed it to smell like him cause of how much she misses him. (that kinda broke my heart when she said that.) I really wish I could do something to fix all of this but I can't of course, because I don't have superpowers but I still try my best for my mom no matter what, because in the end I need make sure she's okay with her mental health and physical health. This is really just me dumping a bunch of stuff out but its stuff I needed to get out so yeah thanks.