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Sad little lar gibbon why are you so so sad why do you hide in your enclosure all day. Sad sad little lar gibbon why did your best little gibbon friends betray you. So sad sad so sad little lar gibbon you have stayed in your room for the past week don't eat don't sleep stay up all night

Half my soul left my body when as a kid I became a doll for my parents to dress up and show to other people. If I tried to become anything else I was met with contempt, dismissiveness and frustration. I have to be the doll at all times or else they tell me how much they hate me and how much I ruin their marriage and how I will never do anything in life. Maybe that is true I think or maybe not I don't know I can't have anymore right Twix because it will kill me and turn me into a demon.

My other half of my soul left my body when I was 14 my best friends betrayed me. I loved them so much, I love them more than anything. I still love them so much and miss them everyday. They used to love me too but they changed their mind they didn't like me anymore and wanted me gone because they hated who I was when I wasn't the doll because I have to be the doll at all times or else I will die. It hurt so bad it still hurts really bad every time they appear in my dreams it takes me weeks to recover. It hurt so bad that a lot of the time something will remind me of them and it makes me really scared or sad or anxious and I need to hide and then it makes me feel the exact same feeling I did when I was 14 and hopeless. 

2 years later when I was 16 I discovered if I just indulge in the right Twix it makes those feelings go away and I forget everything that has happened ever and makes me feel amazing and happy and nothing bad has happened. But I smoked too weed and did too much artificial meth and I had to go to the psychiatric unit and I can't have right Twix anymore I have to wait until I'm 24 which is in 7 years

Message for ####, ###, #######, ####, and ##: Not one day since then have I felt I really belong anywhere. What happened absolutely destroyed me and I frequently suffer from flashbacks and nightmares. I am in therapy now and only started talking about it a few weeks ago because I'm so terrified of talking about it. You own my sleepless nights. My sloth really loves you and she told me 2 years ago that she misses you as much as I do. I just want you to know that everything that happened with basement boys and despite how deeply it has effected me, I forgive you. You are not the same person that you were back then and neither am I. I hope I feel like a memory to you, because you are a memory to me. I hope it feels like we've been friends in a thousand lifetimes before this one. Thank you for making the pain of being 13 years old a little more bearable. I can only hope that you know how I much really loved you

In my dreams nothing bad has happened between us and I am showing you siamang gibbon videos