probably considered a vent maybe dont actually read this

not a fan of the weather, winds are said to go up to 35mph... my flats going to blow away WITH ME IN IT!!!!!

oh if only i had the strength to stab needles into my brain

anyone ever found out who owns that car down the side of the road on the way to porthleven thats been there for like over a decade now??? curious, for all we know there could be a dead body in there that nobodys been arsed to check for, would not shock me

never trust a sat nav

if god exists then that means someone made a prayer against me

reader, do you even know if i actually exist? how do you perceive me?

when i die there will be no heaven or hell, itll be constant purgatory

theres someone thats reading my blog posts that i dont want here, my thoughts? DON'T YOU FUCKING AVOID ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

do wish i could say more on here but most i want to type are things i dont think anyone should know, like, what happened to me on october the 11th? mystery to everyone except me and one other person !!!

life is an object

life is a creature

life is alive

life is a deer

life is a sad deer

a sad deer

did anyone else hear about openai doing ai videos now? scary, a slight reduction of quality and it looks like real footage, how long until people are sent to prison due to faked footage?

i got the train to plymouth and did not mean to return and if my roommate found out hed probably kill me

anyway i fucking hate mirrors, i dont know who the fuck thought they were a good idea to put up everywhere, we all know they only result in us being disgusted by our own bodies constantly, i dont like going outside and enjoying my day and having all that ruined once i come across a mirror :P

if i got to go back in time for a singular day id probably throw a glass bottle at me in 2015 as a method to desensitise myself to everything, it wouldnt mentally affect me if i was a stranger to my younger self, i think it would prepare me for a lot

i should move out of this shitty town

life is a bit below average right know

i was never allowed to be a child and i wonder how different i would be if that wasnt the case

would like to point out that this is not a final blog or anything like that

there is something different about the dodgy bits of grass around the coast path and i will enjoy that, doesnt mean anything

found out my ex does shit on soundcloud, hoping he doesnt use one of my voicemails at the start of something 

ah, i didnt get my steam account back -__-

i have not topped up my mobile data for over a year now, i do not need an excuse to use my phone outside when i could be enjoying things

my advice?

you have enough screens to stare at, get the fuck off social media, get the fuck off your phone, computer, smart-whatever you use. go outside, enjoy whats left of nature while it still exists, we are watching the wildlife slowly reduce which sucks and all but you better fucking enjoy whats left otherwise you will live to feel nothing but regret, you might even meet someone or find a hobby

summary?

scoop out the guts of your local electrical advertisement board.

i should get a pet or something, rather lonely

i also want to know who goes around cleaning phone boxes

i have never expressed a real emotion, i dont know how, to everyone else i am either an awkward half dead twat or a saint since, we all love to make our enemies think we are at peak happiness.

i wouldnt mind if my friends laughed at my jokes

my roommates hot 

this is a terrible blog i might just add it to the pile of private blog posts lmao

i dont actually use this site for much but when i look at the top blogs it feels like im trying to flush someones dead nan down the toilet

you people are afraid of being a normal happy person, stop making yourself worse only to fit in with your enablers

an old friend invited me to play guitar hero which i havent done for a while but he cancelled it for god knows why

i should get a livejournal

shoutout to everyone with too many coathangers

i dont think ill ever see snow again

youre living in the internet industrial revolution, smile

song of the blog if the embed works

everyone is an asshole

sex is overrated, latest experience, guy asks me to fuck him, we fuck, he thinks hes not gay so he Beats the shit out of me!!!!!!!!! and throws me out his car and im stuck 30m away from home at 2am with no phone or anything, fuck ill just pretend to be straight then!!!! 

is it really that hard to ask for someone to actually appreciate me for once? i dont get what i did wrong, i dont get what i do wrong, why am i so uncomfortable to be around? do i talk too much? do i talk too less? do i say the wrong answers? is it because of how i say the most generic responses in hopes of being a normal person? but these "generic responses" i have learnt from how people have interacted with me? so im subjecting other people to how im invisible to everyone else? is it because i dont even exist? is it because maybe i could exist? is it because im constantly dissasociating for reasons i dont know why? Boooo boring rant