nothing is hitting!

im trying to think of the last time i was rly excited for something and its not going good. how can life move so fast and yet so slow? the worst part is i know ill miss this and write about this oddly specific moment in time where the off gray was just right.

keep telling myself i just need to find something to read since that always seems to fix everything. or maybe ill write. though creating what i want to consume isnt as easy as it sounds and maybe thats because i never know what i want in the first place. things have been ok and that means i feel less myself than i usually do. i try to map myself out but theres a distance between how i am and how i want to be. i need to buy new clothes and get it together. my hairs growing longer and maybe thats what it is. i think i want to dye it black again. id do that bluish black i did once but i hate how it fades and im too lazy for maintenance. am i the only one that thinks side bangs r supes cute right now? we need to bring those back

this morning i had a bagel with gouda cheese and i think thats been my favorite meal lately.

am i the only one that thinks art is dying? in the way that pop music isnt as good as it used to be and celebrities feel like robots nowadays since their socials r so impersonal. wheres the rock and roll and revolution...

oh welll im talking out of my ass now

in this corner of the internet where the stars and moon collide i hope some fairytale wish dust lands on a seed and blooms for us

♥ n