- 2/15/2024 -- 10:18 AM

I feel like an utter disaster. My emotions keep circulating around me each day, And as much as i want to help others. I really do, The ones that are hurting so much, I just want to take their pains and worries away. 

It upsets me as much as i see others hurt and i cannot help, I get it; The only way I am helping is being there for them but i want to DO MORE. y'know? It's hurtful enough as it goes because i don't know what to do in reality. but, It troubles me as much. I don't want them to feel like they're troubling me, i want them to feel welcome. 

and I really would hate to lose someone else too... I've lost too many people last year, I don't wanna make this year the worse for me as well. I don't wish to lose more people, but i wish people would stop blaming themselves for things that really ISN'T in their control, but then again... Aren't i like that as well?