some ppl i like but never get

ughhh I just wish I can be dani filth/skwisgaar/wes/johnathan/other famous/fictinal characters   but like i know my luv wouldn't like it and would get mad at me even tho she knows i love her and not gonna get with those ppl its impossible literaly said i went on wattpad and read a dani filth story called "red september such a good one but she said it was cheating so idkk man but yea