sad comfort + blog for td

finding comfort in your sadness is like building a home for yourself that you know won't stay up. you know it'll break and the roof will tear in a storm, but no matter what you choose to sit there because it's still your home.

other times it's an uncomfortable comfort. this is like when you're laying down, and you're so tired but your arm is twisted the wrong way and you don't want to fix it but you need to because it's uncomfortable but also you can't. gee whizz

anyways, things that happened today:

today i spent my after school time at this lgbtq+ thing called glo, and it's really cool but the person i wanted to see wasn't there today (we haven't seen each other in like 3 weeks). it happens every tuesday, but today i went with my girlfriend. we were cool and also watched mlp together. the only weird part was that this person told me 'are you guys done biting?' when they thought i was biting my gf but i was just hiding my face in her thigh [skull].

not only did i watch mlp with my gf, we watched some carmen sandiego too (she's obsessed with chase devineaux and her face turned red every time he went on screen). my favorite character is probably mime bomb because he's sneaky and funny and he's me if i were quieter.

me and my gf are really good. i think it's because we spent a lot of time together today, and usually we have less trouble communicating when we're face-to-face rather than texting/on call or anything else. she is still my bestest friend forever. and i am excited to give her the gifts i have gotten for her. i also bought her roses, but i made sure not to get yellow ones because yellow roses mean friendship.

nothing really happened with my hissing cockroaches today - i don't even have them yet. i really want them but i'm afraid i'll grow too depressed and not take care of the poor babies.

i made a new therian friend on tiktok and they're really cool, and they do really fast quads and also jump really high. i think they're a maine coon or something. i wanted to play this animal game on roblox but unfortunately my phone is being poopy stinky butt and won't let me update roblox to play it [sob sob].

main mood for today? i'm actually pretty good. today was decent even though i did have a couple outbursts but those i'd rather not speak about. life is all well today.

much love to all, ed