Life hanging in a balance
I've been moving a lot lately for work. From one apartment to another, I have to clean and move my stuff around just so I can do my on-call night duties after my day shifts at both properties for the hotel I work for.
It's a massive headache and I honestly want out. There just aren't many alternatives.
I do hotel front desk, night auditing, purchasing, reservations, and a bit of admin work all in all. I have taken on several roles and I'm really stressed out. My depression and anxiety are through the roof and it has severely affected my alcoholism. Of which I am taking steps to get on top of.
I have spoken to different counsellors regarding my mental health, alcoholism, and financial/debt management. But I need regular therapy for my mental health and I reckon I need plenty of rest off from work. Either they give me the rest I need or hopefully I get a better opportunity elsewhere.
I really don't know what I'm doing with my life at the moment. And I'm pretty sure no one really ever does.
Maybe I'll write a song about it or just ride it all out.
Whatever I decide to do next, I'll decide to make it an adventure.