GOSSIP pt.1 !!! (TW : self harm)

       SO about a year ago, I've met with this girl that we'll call Ichika! And at first she was like, okay-ish not nice but not rude either, but the nasty thing bout her was that she kept arguing w/ ppl & stuff & she kept getting me into those lil fights that lead nowhere, and it was a lil annoying tbh. Neither way she kept going & going (and if I wanted to tell her that it wasn't okay and stuff about her behavior she would get like REALLL mad and I didn't want to deal w/ that) until one time when we we're talking with the religion teacher (we'll call him mister P) & I zoned out a bit only to hear that Mr P was telling her(Ichika) that her cutting herself becuz of some random boy isn't worth it & gave ME as an example that I don't cut myself just becuz Im sad. Now that is bad enough on his own but the fact that this girl didn't even care about that and just wanted to flex her like 3 days of being free of SH or whatever she was doing, bc I was just shocked, jaw dropped to the floor when I heard bout that. But let's get into the trillions and millions of boys she was talking too. So the boy I was talking about I'm pretty sure his name was Ricky (not sure tho) that was one of the many he dirty talked / dated while we were close. I remember she told me several times that she absolutely destroyed her arms and legs becuz Ricky was mad at her over some real dump shit.

       After all that mess, around summer, we(me and ichika) started hanging around a bitttt more and I gave her like 100 bucks bc she wanted to buy some things and yaddi yadda, and I buyed her a few clothes from the thrift too since she said she's gonna buy some for me too. Sadly, around this time my mom found out bout the money and gave her a week to give it all back to me and gave me a LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG lecture that I SWEAR lasted forever. Either way, she gave me the money in that time period. Around a week to a month later she kept saying that it was MY FAULT that I gave her money (that she firstly asked for). From that time she kept being very toxic towards me more discretely (if that's how you spell it), like this one time she showed me a popular abandoned building that I really liked, and when I told her that I went there w/ some of my own friends she got mad since "they could've given the place away" not like it's in the MIDDLE of the city ( & they wouldn't do that). Plus, when we went inside and we found some guy smoking some grass and I told her that she ignored me (or just didn't hear me idk) and when she actually saw him pushed me (and I almost fell and got hurt since we we're on some stairs) saying that "her reputation is more important" just because she saw some artists or sum shit??? 

       And now at school nobody really likes her tbh, but sadly, she really likes my deskmate (the one I posted in my bullentin about) and everytime she sees us she walks up to her and talks to her and just ignores me. but the thing is that, if I leave she's gonna get mad and shit. 

anywayyy hoped you liked my rambling bout this girl, goodnight guys!!!

[edit] : I've seen her mom at the supermarket today(14.2) and she looked sad and or angry so atleast I hope she's okay!