2.13.24 | poetry dump

parallel lines

how lonely it must be

to unwaveringly yearn

forever far-seeing and true

and to wait for a future to

embrace you.

a thousand suns have 

burned to ashes

without meeting another

flame of their kind.

how exhausting to reach to

forever for a paradise unknown

and not see your twin star

beside you.

fighting dog

we are clean of ⠀⠀ sin ⠀⠀⠀ when we are⠀born, ⠀⠀⠀ they say ⠀⠀⠀ every being created ⠀⠀⠀ in the  ⠀⠀⠀ white eye of  ⠀⠀⠀ the sun ⠀⠀ until there are places ⠀⠀ where even ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ god ⠀⠀⠀⠀ can’t  ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ reach ⠀ there are places ⠀⠀ where we are  ⠀⠀ shaped by hell’s ⠀ hands ⠀ into weapons ⠀⠀  our teeth sharpened ⠀⠀ claws bared until ⠀⠀ we  ⠀⠀ forget ⠀⠀ how to be ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ any other way  ⠀⠀ we are taught ⠀⠀ to ⠀⠀ make enemies out  ⠀  of⠀ innocence ⠀⠀ to be the ⠀⠀ bark and the ⠀⠀ bite both  ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ to stow childhood ⠀⠀ away in shoeboxes ⠀ forgotten under ⠀⠀  beds gathering ⠀⠀ dust ⠀⠀  crumpled polaroids  ⠀⠀ and ribbons and ⠀⠀ jet buttons⠀and fabric scraps⠀⠀like something waiting ⠀⠀to be⠀made⠀⠀we are rotten to the ⠀core ⠀⠀ peel open my ⠀⠀flesh and ⠀⠀⠀⠀see the black rot on my ribs ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ the fungus blooming ⠀⠀⠀ on my intestines the⠀⠀⠀white foam dripping⠀⠀ from my face ⠀⠀⠀ so long muzzled i can⠀⠀taste steel on my tongue⠀⠀⠀⠀or is it blood?⠀⠀⠀my ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀blood is⠀⠀stagnant and it⠀⠀only moves when i am⠀⠀⠀making wounds⠀⠀⠀turning skin to paper ribbons⠀⠀⠀but forgive me for your pain⠀⠀⠀⠀i am only a fighting dog⠀⠀⠀i am what they made me

i want

to drink you like honeysuckle

pull the stamen from the

body like i’m ripping out your

lungs ⠀⠀ put you on my tongue

just one drop will be enough

that’s a lie but i will

pretend just for you

to crush you like a gilt-edged

autumn leaf under my

shoe ⠀⠀ watch you flit scarlet

through the crisp air

land belly-up on the sidewalk

webbed with cracks ⠀⠀ place my

foot over you and hear the

crunch as you break

to love you like a book ⠀⠀ pages

tissue-paper thin ⠀⠀ dog-eared into

worn triangles ⠀⠀ to crack you

open and read epics on your

entrails ⠀⠀ to tuck you away like an

old friend ⠀⠀ i will always come

back to you someday

to spill you like water ⠀⠀ watch you

gloss the floor ⠀⠀ slip in your mess ⠀⠀ clean

you up like a victim ⠀⠀ mop you from

my mind ⠀⠀ scrub until there is no

you ⠀⠀ there is only blank to stare at

the stain you leave behind ⠀⠀ it hurts like hate