blog for td/yesterday?? idk its 1am + acceptance of the end of the world

accepting things are so weird and hard. think about it. when the world begins to end because a giant meteor is about to strike into us or something, will we panic? we can't really do anything about it, so why worry?

that's something i've always told myself - to not worry about something that's out of my hands, and to not worry about things that are in my control. though i find it hard to do this.

anyways, things that happened today:

i didn't really do anything with my friends today. all my friends got on a group call and it made me kind of sad because nobody told me about it. also i went to the doctor and he prescribed me amitriptyline for my headaches and depression (i will not be taking it and/or will throw it all up).

i finished reading this webcomic at like 5 in the morning, it's called golden shrike and it's about like deer and stuff. also there's two gay bucks and it's cool. i started reading like a week ago but today i began on chapter 3 and ended on chapter 8 (the end, for now) and it left me a huge shock and cliffhanger. it's really cool.

my gf was nice today but she was a bit mad at me for the doctor thing. anyways i will love her forever and forever i'm only hers. i would place her in my pocket if i were a giant and take her around the world to show her she is just as beautiful as the stars in the sky and the fishies in the ocean.

i got reptile substrate for my cockroach enclosure (it works, trust) and i haven't put it in there yet bc i want to get a heating pad before i do anything to fill up the enclosure too much. and also (SAD WARNING) my brother's fish died. his name was red and we had him for a week before the plastic plants that my brother forgot to rinse killed the little guy. rest up red.

also at like 12 i was working on a silver fox mask for myself. it's like 1/3 way done but i'm proud of it and will most likely show it off when i get the chance because i'm very cool and i love doing crafty things. also i messed around on my tiktok account a bit and blocked everyone else on my main account on my alt because i cannot risk people finding me!! being a therian is scary, but i love my people.

main mood for today?? also down just like yesterday. but i did take a shower today. but also i felt more down because i had literally nobody to hang out with but also it's ok because it's a monday but also i had no school because it snowed.

much love to all, ed