issue 6

this one’s unrelated to “C”, but ive been incredibly stressed out lately. on one hand i could go to uni, i have 5/5 offers, so completely locked in. on the other, i could go for a gap year or an apprenticeship. im js so tired of the constant workload academically, it makes me hate myself tbh. i’m not doing poorly by any means, i get great grades which is impressive for someone who focuses on science. but im constantly pushing myself to achieve such grades and i turn to drugs as an out. it’s incredibly unhealthy but it works well. however i can’t do this forever, i get burnt out every few days and feel myself relapsing into old habits. id love to live carelessly like C or our other friends, but that’s just not for me. i cant afford to act like they do. 

what is there for me to do?