2/12 Isolation

Time

Go to Noon

Go to Dusk

Go to Night

im unable to talk to people. i feel so inept at socializing, i dont think there's been a point in my life where i could declare myself socially proficient. whenever a person tries to talk to me i shut them down immiediately. the people i seem to manage a relationship with never keep up or interact with me outside of the necessary. why? i feel like a paradox. when it comes to people. i usually only care about myself. yet whenever i get lonely, i crave companionship. how arrogant is that? i hate getting to know someone. yet im selfish enough to wish for someone to care about me, to want me. it's reasonable that i wouldnt make any friends. but i guess im tired of my inability to maintain a relationship with a human being. nothing about what i do or say points towards human connection. yet i like it when people compliment me, i like when people are nice to me. i dont think i fit anyone's wishes for a friend or partner. i avoid peoples eye's. i avoid their words. i avoid the human experience. so im thankful for the few ones in my life, theres no word to describe the power our relationship holds. maybe if by a miracle we become friends...youll fall in love with me!!♡( •ॢ◡-ॢ)✧˖° ♡

Today's mood was...!!! 

 Today's song was... shadow being!!( please listen! its one of my most liked ever!)