weed

knda wishing i was js a little less self aware,,, like im rlly rlly self aware and responsible and its been keeping me from having fun a little -_-" like all my friends smoke weed n i rlly wnna try it out too i mean ive tried it b4 but i wanna give it another shot yk? i shouldnt cuz its dangerous with my psychosis but also like,,, i feel like i kinda should? like im expected to idk. theres ppl who are js as mentally ill as me that would die to smoke weed and use it to self medicate n also i feel like its expected from ppl in my communities to smoke and like i get excluded from friend groups because of it? might give it another tryyy i js wish i wasnt so responsible so i could js smoke weed