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Long time no post!

So on the 23rd of January I woke up and got ready to spend 10 days with someone I've been in love with since I was 15. 4 years ago if you told me I'd be doing that I'd laugh in your face because I thought he was long gone, but we got back in contact and the love I have for him never wavered.

 We went to the zoo because he knows I adore animals and we stood looking at the Red Pandas until one poked their head out of the trees and we both laughed. He took me on our first proper date, we went to dinner and he told me I looked lovely. He insisted on paying when I suggested on going halves. We went to the arcade and laughed at the totally rigged claw machines when we tried to win a plushy. We went to a shop and we got healthy snacks because he knew I have a special diet and wanted to make sure I had all the nice things while I was with him. We had a routine where we'd wake up every morning and have tea and watch an episode of an anime we like. We had tea and he always let me have the last biscuit even though I know they're his favourites. Everyday he'd ask if I was okay, and when I was homesick he sat with me until I felt better.  

 
When it was time for me to go back home 10 days later, he was so sad, and I didn't want to leave him, but life happens. A few days later I get a package in the post. He sent me an early Valentines gift. An Eternal Black Rose, a symbol of never ending love.

I've never had a Valentines gift, I've never felt so loved by someone who wasn't my family. It's strange, and I keep thinking maybe he'll figure out i'm not as good, maybe he'll think i'm not pretty, not thin enough or not tall enough or SOMETHING! But every worry I have he always tells me not to, because none of that matters. I'm his. 

Anyways, I just needed to get that out into words. I'm so freaking happy it's unreal. I thought i'd be alone forever considering I struggle socially, but I won't be, and neither will he.