whats going on 2nite

Hi guys :3

 i just realized i can't go back 2 school tomorrow so that means I don't need to force myself to sleep, so i wont and that means im alone w my thoughts until about 2am. 

I've just been watching you tube to keep my mind off everything, but it still kinda sucks so heres whats going on in my head right now

• The guy i like just got back to school. I had seen him in the therapy office, wondering why on earth the quarterback would be there. I found out his parents just got divorced. Theres this strange feeling of realizing the person youve seen as perfect and been admiring for months also has these things going on. I think the pretentious person term for that is Sonder.
• I just havent felt full, maybe its because i havent seen my friends in a while since ones been drowned in school work and the other got strep throat for the 6th time this year. Ive felt kind of empty, just like im watching myself exist
• these posts suck