Depression Rant

My case manager quit, which is pretty much my therapist. I don't know why she quit, I'm gonna miss her, she was a really great person. But I feel like nobody has been listening to me, like I'm so depressed it's unsafe. I miss all these things that I can't get back yet. I have been popping pills and getting high everyday. I keep trying to stop but things are stressful. I really hate the way that my prescriber thinks I'm seeking attention. I have real trauma and need real help. I really don't understand how I'm attention seeking, it's bullshit. I am so done with everything. I need real help.