happy lunar ny :3 n studying ..

no intro hi hello i dont hve 2 type an intro on here..

went 2 the prettiest temple today for the first day of lunar new year! it was great. my stepmoms vietnamese and walked us through everything in the buddhist temple cuz im a christian like i dont know what 2 do but TG she showed us lol but it was lovely. insane tht in like industrial south auckland therez just like a massive $20m temple .. like WOAH

kinda having weird feelings about life (mikey dms im sorry u got harassed first) but im just like really apathetic about future rn. like yeah wooo study time so i can. study more and then study more and then work full time and then start a family and die old and its just .. idk like .. idk my current thesis statement is tht i wasnt meant 4 life but i do Not mean tht in a suicide way :3 just in a. frustrated upset at capitalism if im honest way. i was not meant 4 life girl ..

also had a bad feeling about my granny today (<- guy w anxiety where every feeling is a bad feeling lol) cuz like shes real sick BUT shes a real baller so logically ik she'll be fine itz just :c like yk. i sent her a text anyway 'just to say hi!!' for the first time ever when really its my way of seeing hmmmm are u alive and able to respond 2 me teehehe

also ive been craving korean fried chicken this entire week. idk i WILL be buying it tmr like i need it .. yummy chicken come back 2 me like i dont even like chicken but oh mg. and i want a diet coke. i did not eat dinner is this obv

anyway did nothing else <- i always come on here n say tht but whatEVA like leave me alone. schools been fine like my evil horrible teacher is still scaring me so bad BUT my good nice teachers are still okay so maybe we even out huh. however ive been hiding in skl bathrooms again and like man. i had 2 days where i could stand the amnt of people... neway ive done nothing but study honestly and thts like hard to do three days in but nothing entertains me (xcept for the bestfriend cause he was over last night) at the moment like yt is apathetic so is twitch and .. im listening 2 music sure but yk .. so its just been school work ig .. the futility of life gang.

all my friends r at a party rn also and liek i didnt even consider going cause i cant b social atm or tht anyone would care tht im not LOL but then the bestfriend was like yeah people are gonna ask me where u are and huh. doesnt make me wanna go but idk how 2 feel about it. logically ik it should feel nice and all

alright bai im gonna go do some bio education perfect :x

love