boring life blog

too much has been going on, not sure if i can get it all down on here

tried to log into my steam account ive had for around a decade as i havent used it in a while and its gone, not sure if its been banned just vanished which is a shame 

its windy, cold, miserable, wet and foggy as usual

had some fun walking down the train tracks to see where i end up, pretty much nowhere (they arent used anymore of course)

yet again, ive been showing up to random parties i know nobody at

right now im bad at saying things, right now i am spamming someones mobile with "luv u come back i miss u" over and over when hes the one that fucked up

so, heres the main bit that nobody will read:

my ex stayed at mine with her bf and i dont like her at all because she did things to me that i probably can not say on here and im honestly not sure why i let her stay but she didnt really talk to me which was good, her bf was called perran 

the name perran probably has some meaning behind it, sounds like itd be cornish since... i am in cornwall after all but it could even be welsh or spanish... probably not spanish as he claimed he wasnt "just a regular cornish person" because his grandad was from runcorn.... 

could tell he was from camborne by his accent, he shared my hatred for spingo, had similiar lives, liked wasting hours on the internet and enjoyed hanging around tesco which got us talking and i dont usually talk to people from camborne because they all have their head up their arse (fyi to non south west folk: camborne is a 20m drive from me)

i dont really like saying whereabouts i live but this really gives it away, we snuck on the roof of the abandoned co-op, pretty much almost fell in and died because it has 5 billion holes in it and we enjoyed the shitty view of a shitty town thatll probably be a tourist trap in a decade, shared a light and sat there for longer than we should have even while it started raining, i think i caused him to get mild hyperthermia from that but he was fine the next day as he drank so much he threw up on the carpet

my roommate didnt like him that much, even threatened to kill him over that and just gave up on being angry

he done the most camborne thing ever and picked me up from the woods at night (dont ask) and drove me home while drunk but drove to his flat instead and i was too scared to say that he was supposed to take me to mine so i stayed there the night and it was great, i still dont know why he was staying at mine if he has somewhere fine to live alone ? when i woke up i could see the sun piercing through the tree leaves

few days after that we went to flambards, may or may not have snuck in for free entry, did a few things got boring after like an hour and i asked him there about the whole thing and why he had to stay in my flat and he just avoided the question and told me that i "need to figure shit out"

my roommate keeps flirting with me

we then wasted the rest of that day on the playstation and then at night had a drive around to see where we could end up, his car was all fogged up and forming mould in various places and there was around 15 empty water bottles scattered around the floor which was like knee-high, i don't know where we ended up but that night i figured out that you cant tell anything about anybody by how they like their coffee, it has nothing to do with their responsibilities or how trustworthy they are

i am the man of the cliffs as that is usually where i am now, i am also the man of the barbed wire, the sofa, the worn down patch of carpet by the tv, the computer chair, the health centre, the bottle, the bus, the bed, the floor, my friends car, the field, the field and the field.

i talked to him and he got mad and left so now its just me and my roommate living in the flat, my roommate said that it was bound to happen and "hes like that" but maybe he had reasons? i think to him i was just a shitty remaster of his favourite album

ive already said this but im sending him texts telling him that i love him but he isnt responding, he could even have my number blocked at this point 

someone is setting off fireworks which is very annoying, i don't care whos birthday it is, who died, how drunk you are, i don't want to hear it.

song of the blog, nobody reads this far :