Postpartum

I’m 3 months PP and having such a hard time accepting my body as is atm. A little backstory; A year before I got pregnant I had accomplished losing 90 pounds. I had never loved or accepted myself more! Life felt like I deserved it and the insecurities weren’t as hard on me. Then boom I get pregnant, blow up, and now I need to get rid of this loose skin and mama pouch. I have 2 children now, work full time, am a full time girlfriend. I’ve tried going to the gym either in the early am before kids are awake and before my man goes to work. But it’s hardddd to get up and be motivated when I work 12 hours then get home and have to cook dinner and be up with the baby most of the night. I’ve tried going to the gym after work but I’m also tired and knowing my family has been waiting for me all day at home. The really scary part is my mental health. All my life I’ve struggled with binge eating … that caused me to not allow myself to eat anything all day until maybe 2 days goes by and then I will want everything in sight and make that a cycle. I know it’s not healthy and it’s not how I want to live. I’m just stuck right now and keep reminding myself it’s not as bad as I think it is. I am beautiful. I do deserve to eat.