Why am I so lonely?

This existence is so lonely and isolating. I am so unsure how to interact with others and how to make friends. It's so upsetting this life I am so unfulfilled. The only thing keeping me going is my boyfriend and Eric H4rr1s and Dylan K1eb0ld sadly. They are part of the reason why I am still here today. I feel less lonely when I read the journals of Dylan and Eric. I find comfort reading their thoughts and connecting to them on a deeper level. Right now I feel like I do not connect with anyone and its killing me inside. Unable to form a basic human connection. I wish I had some friends like Eric and Dylan. Just one person to do everything with, to connect with. Anything. 25 years I have spent alone and its draining I miss connecting with humans in person. I am fine online but I have no one in person to make that connection with. Everything feels so distant. I miss when I was younger and filled with love and life. I need those feelings back. its mostly depression and sadness. I really am losing so much hope, I cant believe my life turned out like this. after everything I thought I would be someone and amount to something but I am currently nothing and it feels terrible. I don't think anyone even cares. I have disappeared from society two years ago and i have been wallowing in this lonely depressed state. it feels so empty. life is meaningless.


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Anon_Kitty

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im sorry about this feeling...
i feel lonely too sometimes


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pit

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maybe its because you like two unwell teenaged boys that pewpewd' up their highschool. its just a speculation it could be something else but i dunno 🤷


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maxi b.

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girl I feel like that too, but I always tell myself that at some point people are going to come along and change my life, but you also have to make an effort to talk to people to establish friendly relationships, in this life you always risk to get what you want.!!!!


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Flynn

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pffttt emo


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AttacusAtlas

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I would definitely like to talk to you about some of this stuff. I understand feeling troubled on human connection, even on feeling some similar things you've stated here in this blog. Feel free to message me, if you'd like!


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Thank you so much that means alot <3

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