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  guys i hung out with an old friend and i was so shocked because she was so emotionally stunted it blew me away. i am not trying to be rude but when i was talking about growing up and how i have moments where i just know better. i cant explain it but looking back on something i did at age 15 and thought i was safe n whtevr BUT nah girl id never do that now cuz i just know different. she straight up goes ' ya like when you remember an argument from a week ago and you have a better come back' girl what. she also didnt know what happened with chernobyl or that taxes needed to be done at this age. it was hard for me bcuz i was trying  to find a person to conect with but she just isnt aware of anything or how her actions effect others it was insane. i will keep seeing her but she is unable to hold meaningful and deep conversations unless its about drugs and boys. fucking wild how some people can lack so much self awareness it baffles me to my core. love her lotz tho, n she is super nice, smart and pretty but i still just cant. my ex boyf was like that she kinda reminds me of him, but everything reminds me of him. bruh i hate texted him back ending the mssg with @ dont text me back' and he NEVER texted me back...... WILD i wanted him to beg and cry like he used too. tell me he loved n missed n needed me still, like yessss boy tell me you need me after you cheat on me with 2 different girls and lie about it and rape for the whole year we were together :D !!!! u hate him and i hate myself. bye :3