School｡☆‧͙˚

Sitting in my room ⋆｡°✧☆

11:02 AM. Drain You, Nirvana♡‧₊˚‧͙˚☾｡

｡☆‧͙˚ So you're telling me that I woke up at 4:30 am, rifled through the internet for thirty minutes searching for the article, read it for an hour, and spent another hour and a half writing an assignment just for it all to be for nothing??? Helloooo, we're in the twenty first century, why is my teacher wanting hard copies only at the start of class. I prepped everything, and was ready to go to class after getting an two hours (barely) of sleep, becuase the class grades on attendance and assignments, only to not be able to go because our apartment managmnet is trying to get into our unit, and my brother did not want to let them in :/. Like bruh, I got a warning letter for my gpa I really cant afford this set back I dont even care about the effort I put in I just need to survive this semester dawg TT.

｡☆‧͙˚On top of that, I literally binged this morning because I woke up with nowhere to go. I hate constantly thinking about food and calories and wtv, and it doesnt even do any good for me because Im going to be binging anyways. Yesterday I went over my limit too, even though I stopped myself from eating the entire box of melona (which I ended up eating this morning all in one sitting anyways, although I have one left which Im going to eat after this LOL). I hate looking at my old pictures where Im actually averagely sized. BRB gotta go mine for gems in Webkinz.

｡☆‧͙˚Okay, I got a ruby heart but I needed only one other gem, and it was not that one rip. Im also trying to write my resume right now, but my jobs going to have to be a secret or else Ill probably get cussed at again by my dad for supposedly "wanting to clean other ppls shit", even though Im just not tryna have any student debt on me right now. And maybe even pay for a (secret) piercing, and take care of my cat whom I miss so much. I feel like Ive been keeping a lot of secrets lately, like how Im starting to get somewhat hateful, not hateful thats a strong word, but in that general region, of my one friend. It's just building up. Always feeling so judged by her. Im glad my college is in another city even if Im rotting in bed. It makes me sad because its such a beautiful city. I want to go out. I used to go out a lot on my motorcycle, but legally (right now) I need winter tires to ride, even if theres no snow on the ground. I love the snow, but theres none. I was texting my friend about it last night, I really miss her.