venting

I'm venting here things recently haven't been easy I wear a fake face every day all day around my friends my family and sometimes even my girlfriend. btw in case, you care me and my old girlfriend broke up she was cheating on me and sending things to another guy the entire time but I did find someone new and much better There is only one inconvenience she is poly which means she dates multiple ppl right now its me one person and the second person s confusing atm this is hard on me bc i like it just being me and the one I love not sharing as selfish as that might sound but I put up with her other ppl and the situation bc i do in fact love her so much! she means the world to me but even abt things like that i have to wear this mask saying I'm okay all the time and its starting to get hard to put that mask on i know ive been wearing it for a long time but now its starting to get hard i dont wanna wear it anymore but im scared of what the world will think if they rlly see me how i am and how i see myself. im having to move houses i barely see my family anymore im shutting out friends me and my girlfireind have to have a talk or an argument at lest 3 times a week and everything right now is just really hard and I'm having a hard time dealing with it all, if you read all this thank you for listening it means a lot i just needed to get this off my chest.