rant blah :P

k so idk y i am gunna rant but i rlly wanna so ima do it. 

well i waited till i was like 18 to date because i didnt like any1 but my i dont count my first bf as a real thing bcuz it was so short n i didnt knew we was dating only he did... gives ya all the info u need to know about him. 

well i met my now ex at age 11 and we were neighbours, n were really close friends from age 11-15 (he is 1 year younger). it was just me, my ex friend and him. only 3 of us. all lived on the same street. he was such a nice boy, so kind, so helpful and understanding, but my god was he dumb. at age 15 for me life went crazy and i moved across my town, he moved 3 hours away. 

we lost touch till i was 18, one month away from turning 19 and he was 17, 5 months from turning 18. he had a gf, we didnt talk much at all. in jan of 2023 he told me she broke up with him. by may of 2023 we were basically in a relationship. i kept telling him over and over again i didnt wanna date him yet cuz he was dating his ex for a year almost and i wasnt going to be a rebound or allow him to not feel the feelings he needed to after the end of his last. i went to see him and he came to see me. we took my v after lying to me. i said the only way id sleep ith him if he had not slept with anyone else since  he and his ex ended stuff. he said he had not been sleeping around. i went to see him in his town for 2 weeks, so many girls did the whole fake bitch thing and became my 'friend" called me pretty, mice, kind, everything a fake ass bitch would say. about 3 weeks into us dating he was "raped" blackout at a party. now i never ever blame the victim so i believed him, because why LIE ABOUT RAPE ??? well he did. 

he moved back here and he became even worse then before. we dated for 10 months and i never got flowers, a date, a card, a gift, anything. he froced me to give head, forced me to do so many things i was scared to do and would cut himself when i told him it was rape to force me into sex, touch me when i was sleeping, and get me blackout to fuck me. he put a lighter out on me, he held my foot so hard he bruised and fractured the bone, he stole from me, he lied and cheated. \

about 9 months into us dating i broke up eith him, the same week is ex who also moved to my town, a 5 min walk from my exs house, asked to meet. so i met her. 

she told me everything i fucking knew the whole time but was gaslit into not believing. she told me they broke up in april (we got together in maY) ( he took my v in may) she was fucking him till june, and he was sleeping with the girl that he claimed raped him since may,, and she was 15 at the time,, he was 18. younger then his younger sister, he slept with a girl younger then his. younger. sister. 

well i broke up with him and he moved half way across the country with hus best friend saying i ruined his life bcuz i was the only good thing, he will only ever love me, i was his first love, there is nobody like me out there, he cant live without me, he will kill himself if i leave him. BLAH BLAH BLAH BRUH IF I WAS THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE WHY CHEAT ON ME FOR 5 MONTHS OF US< HIT ME< BLAME ME FOR UR BAD LIFE CHOICES AND LIE AND CHEAT WHY DID U CHEAT ON ME.

ok the things the bother me the most are the things he said. he said those girls looked like me, and reminded him of me, because i was his first crush at age 10 i made up his like of women. he said all the girls he went after all were somewhat like me to fill the void i left when i moved at age 15. all the girls he cheated on me with are 10X hotter then me. it was a punch to the gut oi didnt think i would get. god both girls are so pretty and im just here. blows my mind how much this has effected me. my whole 2023 was me comparing myself to a 16yo and a 17yo at age 19. all the girls that were so nice to me, called me slut, skank, whore, bitch to my own boyfriend and he agreed. he literally told them when he stopped fucking them that the only reason hes cutting contact with them was bcuz i "put out" and would " do more" but the first time i ver gave head i was crying so hard i was appalled he was able to stay hard i was gasping for air.

anyways my rant on my ex that blames me for him moving to ontario and losing contact with all his hoes, also hes bald at age 18, took him 38 tries from age 14-18 to get his learners. fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk