One year ago today. (CW)

(CW, suicide self harm hospital)

One year ago today I had the one of the worst experiences of my life. 

On february 4, 2023. I had a severe mental breakdown, i had hurt myself badly and was threatening suicide resulting in my mother calling 911 to have me admitted. Shockingly, that hospital had let me out that morning because i had pinky promised to be good and neeeeever do that again. 

The next morning, i attempted to end my life in two different ways. Another ambulance was called and i was taken to another hospital 45 minutes away where i contracted covid and sat for 3 days. Barely eating, barely drink, only asking to use the restroom twice. 

I wasnt allowed to go school for the next week, and just 3 days after i had gotten out of the hospital, we had put my almost 11 year old cat down to sleep and buried her the next weekend. 

sorry for the rant, just wanted to get that out there.