What I could've done / Feb 5th 2008

Sometimes I wonder what I could've done with my life. Growing up, I wanted to have a kid and lots of cats, which seems like a normal kids idea of a perfect life, but it kinda stuck with me. I still want to have a kid but I can't do that anymore. I don't know why I wanna have a kid considering how my life is going. I can't even grow up and be who I wanted to be. I'm a drunk, depressed 18 year old and I'm not making it past the 14th.

It would've been nice to have someone love me, someone who can call me mom and a pet who I can care for. I'm sad that I can't live my dream but it's fine I guess. I also wanted to become a professional ghost hunter with A       and J        but that'll never happen. I'm wasting my life.

Feb 5th 2008

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