(so I don't have to). [02/04/024]

TO THE SHADOW MAN FROM MY DREAMS–

I WOULD HAVE SAID THIS TO YOU BUT I WAS AFRAID THAT YOU MIGHT FOLLOW ME FROM THE ASTRAL REALM INTO MY ROOM AND HURT ME.

You really need to shut the fuck up.

I am so tired of fighting with you.

It’s not me, it’s you. It has always been you.

I wish you would go to therapy (so I don’t have to).

My future is bright. You would not know, because you were born of darkness.

I know that nothing terrible will come of this feeling;

it is a wave I’ve swallowed before –

I can still feel where the salt scratched my throat –

but yes, I am still afraid of you. Stop asking.

I am still afraid of you. You petty little bitch.

I am fighting that fear every day. I am fighting you every day.

With all this talk about “giving up,” I’m surprised you haven’t thought of that

for yourself. I really think you should consider it (so I don’t have to).