we were all drowning together

yea so i did know myself, i said that i wanna write journal-like things everyday to this app as a blog and i already missed day 2 but believe me i was tired and i really have so many shit on my mind that i dont even know how to put in to words, and thats new cuz normally i write the best when i have so many things on my mind, it may be suprising because it still is to me that im a writer, i will be a full-blown journalist one day i just need to have the energy to start my career at some point but yea im waiting for the energy to come for couple years now since i graduate, anyways im not used to writing on computer too i dont get how people does that so effortlessly nowadays, i always loved writing on a paper even tho i get my hands cramped after 40 mins it still worth it cuz i have my best writings on paper and good decent ones on computer so that sucks cuz i have a book that i will probably spend my whole life to finish and i cant do that on paper, i had a typewriter back in the days but now i dont even know where that is and if im not mistaken it  needed to be fixed cuz i broke it  acccidently and never fixed it, i dont know why i just dont do things too sometimes i say i need to do  this but then i dont, i dont postpone it or make up excuses for not doing too i just simply dont do it with full conciousness

anyways new topic for this page, and a new topic for my life to be bothered, so i met someone on the new years we had fun and all but we were never alone anyways after new years we started to talk regularly and now i changed my mind about telling all this because i just realized if i write about this it will have a real-ass place in my life and on my mind and i really dont want that, it wasnt a sad love crush story tho, i never have that type of shit going on with my life, i do have love shit in my life i just dont have that sad sobby stories like i liked him and he didnt liked me back and shit UHHHMMMMMM ANYWAYS this feels enough i will go and check out what i rebloged on tumblr back in 2015 cuz i just learned that there is an archive that i can actually see my reblogs and posts in some type of calender shit like how it is on instagram archives 

okay bye