I feel a pang in my heart When i think of Nujabes

I love Nujabes. I believe he was one of the greatest producers to ever grace the world. Each and every one of his melodies and beats are just... magical. They have a elegance and charm I haven't seen anyone replicate.

 Honestly his music has changed my life and me for the better. His music helped me battle so many days of depression- so much so that some days I don't know where id be if I couldn't listen to his melodies and beats.

 

I miss Nujabes so much- and I don't even know the man. Normally I would just support the artist however I can, like buying merch or seeing them live- maybe even sending a fan letter... but he's gone.

Its so deep to the point that I genuinely that I feel indebted to him.

Nujabes has been dead for 14 years- and every time I think of the fact that another song will never be released by him, that ill never be able to appreciate him live or even support him for everything he's inadvertently done for me there's such a deep sting in my heart.

I've come to resent everything, the crash that took his life, the fact I wasn't born earlier- everything when I think of him and his music.

I pray that one day I can visit his grave and pay my deep respects, and ill even be in japan this time next year- so it feels so possible. But his family wants to keep the site of his private, so a part of me hopes I can see him, but I know I never will.

Until some turn of fate ill just keep his music in my mind and heart, silently paying my respect for him in every song I listen too.

The song playing in the BG is one of my favorites of his: Beat Laments the World - Nujabes