me trying not to kms

hey, guys, I'm so #notokay I have come to realize something that is not #amazballs for me, and the time in it was brought to my attention while babysitting can u imagine thinking everything is okay and then getting a text message that hurts so bad but u can't cry or let you're feeling out because your babysitting. than the baby screaming in your ear. the crazy thing is you think one thing is something but then u find something else out and now u can look back to all the times when there was something. seeing both sides has my head spinning but I will thug it out lol (if I don't kms) jk jk lol(I'm not)  if I'm forgiven will depend on if I will continue to breathe what we call today air) lol bye bye