ok this is my first day writing here

i will probably forget that i wanted to have a journal-like writings here and i will most definitely stop writing here in couple days, i give myself max 5 days since im known for my instability, saying that i would also add that my dad and i had this weird conversation like a day ago 

okay i just got  interrupted by a friend asking me how am i doing and i almost spilled everything to her that i wanted to write here so yea now im sad again cuz i couldnt do the thing i wanted to do which was to write here BUT OKAY, anyways so i had like this conversation w my dad where i get to learn about how he thinks of me, which was like a slap on the face kinda because i always thought i have an amazing relationship with my dad and i do we do believe me its better than what most girls have, anyways so he told me that he wanted me to stand on my own feet and im like UMMM what you think im doing bro like everyone i have ever met always told me that they admire me about so many things that my dad just casually told me that i need to ''do better'' ''realize'' these same things ppl were admiring me about and told me that i cant do them basically 

AYYY ANYWAYS now i started to feel like bitch there are ppl who are doing WAY FKIN WORSE THAN YOU and then now i think that idfc this is big to me and its my problem so if its like a small ass thing for you just say that im a dumb bitch and move on bye