I'm alive but not for long

I honestly believe that my parents and doctors are disappointed of my life choices. I can't help it that scratching my skin until I feel pain is the only thing that helps me distract my mind from those traumas and mental pain that I constantly have. I don't think that putting me in a mental ward would change anything. I just want to be left alone but there's always someone making their way to my life. 

I'm done

I can't take it anymore 

I don't want to be "treated", I want to be fucking heard...