can someone explain me something??

how happened the situation- i mean what the hell w my friends?? i love them and all but sometimes they do pretty not understandable stuff. i had a friend hes older than me like pretty much older and well thats fine. we like to talk to each other but he cant take my very neutral vision on everything. and hes really mad at me because of that?? like bro?? why we always fighting bout that?? i probably just joking bout everything. its not a reason to saying im not normal :( sorry i cant be cis hetero and be wonderful gf for u (I DONT EVEN WANNA DATE ANYONE????? WTF??) i know im not okay and im trying my best to be the best version of me but why ur so angry at me bro :( i cant understand how to interact with people and not disappoint them at the same time hewp Q-Q